#2

He had a great smile and a great heart
He felt just like love

You will always be special to me whether you want to be or not
You will always have a special place in my heart whether you want to be or not
I will never give up on us even if you wish I would just disappear.
I think about you often.
I wish you well.
I wish I could have been that person for you.
I wish  I could be the one to make you smile...and laugh...and have fun with.
I wish that at the end of a long day I can hold your hand as we walk to bed.
Partners.
My confidant.
Years can and have passed.
A life time of what could have happened.
I don't know the future.
I don't know if our boat will sink.
I don't know what will happen.
I do know I will never give up.
I do know I will be there.
I do know I have faith.
In the infinitesimal.
In the memory of looking into your eyes and my soul just lighting up with contentment.
With reading your eyes.
Your strong hand reaching for my weak one.
I felt your confidence.
I felt your heart beat.
        In sync with mine. Briefly.
I felt too much.
And not enough.
My eyes are wide open and I can see the path won't be a straight one.
It will be a narrow rocky ledge with switch backs and dead ends.
I am a storm to be reckoned with.

and i miss you i miss you every single day